Sigh

moody blue..
Been trouble by many things.Fed up.Depression.

Just received my tuition fees which is 5386.90 USD. I don't know how I going to pay for that. I am so helpless at this moment. I leave the worry to GOD, I know everything is gonna be His way. Everything will be solved by Him.

The hardest things to do is do nothing when see your loved one cries. I am so devastated and in the state of melancholy. I can tell no one as I have promised her. Who can share the sadness with me? People keep asking me to give her up, as a typical scorpio, I am too persistent. As the going says, do not regret in doing anything. I have made my choice to be her little guardian even though she has someone taking care of her. At this time, I do not expect anything from her but hope that whenever she needs me, I will be there for her. People say I should not keep drillin on the impossible relationship whereas I am ignoring them! They see the way I treat her is not going to get back anything from her. I really expect nothing from her, I will be happy to see her live happily and healthy..that's my greatest wishes..

God, I laid her on your hand..God, I can do nothing for her but I believe that your blessing gonna be upon her. God, You just give her the strength and peace in doing everyting. This might be her hardest period to go through, but we know that it is a growing process which is also in ur purpose to let us become more mature. God, please strengthen up her heart and mind to face the obstacles. Heavenly Father, she is needing you so desperately now..Father, just be with her all the time. God, Thank you for you everything...In jesus name pray, AMEN...